My brothers

Hi there!

Here are some beautiful pictures of me and my two beautiful brothers Alessandro and Federico! Federico..the little clown. Just by looking at you your heart fills with happiness since he always looks at you with these glossy eyes that screams "PLAY WITH ME". And how can you say no to him? he is too cute. Well, and then we have Alessandro, the beautiful and smart model. I guess that he will have a long line of girls behind him, such a luck that he has me that can be his body-guard haha.

ITALY weekend i Italien

Hi there!

I got a something crazy going through my mind two nights ago, I booked a ticket for Italy...yes, I am crazy. But I really needed to meet my family, to relax for a weekend, to just breathe and eat delicious food. Yesterday I was on a chocolate coffee, it was literally AMAZING! I ate a chocolate cake with melt dark chocolate, strawberry, chocolate ice-cream... I was in a "dream-land". If you sometime are in Cassino go to "Cioccolatiitaliani", you can always find this place in few places in the world e.g Dubai. 

Är i Italien just nu. Var på en choklad-restaurang, åt en väldigt god chokladkaka med smält mörk choklad och chokladglass! 

Exam day!

Let's go and kick the ass of the next 3 exams I have today!!!!!!!

Let's use my brain till I fill the fire sparks!!!

Exams, prov

Hi there!

How are you? Good? Bad? Sad? Happy? I am just how I am... stressed, happy, sad, then happy again, then I cry, then I laugh till my tummy hurts then I become mad and then happy again. Yes, the school makes me crazy sometimes, but don't think that i am the only one. Often I must go and hug my friends that starts to cry out of no were because the press here is so hard. This is a medical students life! All of you must wonder if I think if it's worth it; YES it is. It is totally worth it. I really understand why I react just as I do. I have never lived  far away from my mom, I have never had a "own life", never been in a uni, never studied in the way I do now, never had lectures in english, never been living in another country, never had these many exams never had oral exams etc. So I can actually understand why body reacts as it does. To make me feel better I have made a routine, every friday I go and do aerobics + another day in week. I go to a sauna one time / week. I was there yesterday, just for 15 min, but it was really relaxing. Every 1.5 hours of study my living room becomes a club haha, I turn on high high music and jump around. Remember that you need to move move move! Tomorrow I have 3 exams, cell biology, latin and physics. Right now I am studying physics since my opinion is that physics is more important to study for then the other two subjects. I hope that I will pass the exams. I will do my best! I need to keep studying now,


TT

Hej på er allihopa! Hur mår ni? Är allt bra med er? Är ni glada? Ledsna? Just nu känner jag mig stressad, ledsen, glad, sedan glad igen, sedan gråter jag, sedan skrattar jag till jag måste böja mig utav smärtan i magen då jag just skrattat alltför mycket osv. Så är jag just nu. Ja, skolar håller på och gör mig galen. Men men, det är det man får förvänta sig från läkaruniversitet i utlandet. Ni skall inte tro att jag är den enda som reagerar på detta sett, det händer ofta att jag måste gå och krama om mina vänner för att de får "gråtattacker" pga. stressen och pressen vi har. Ni måste undra om jag tycker att allt detta slitande är värt för att att bli läkare. Jag har ett ända svar, och det är: JA. Detta är helt klart värt det, jag förstår upp till 100 % varför min kropp reagerar på detta sett, jag har aldrig förr haft skola på engelska, aldrig bott i ett annat land, aldrig förr haft muntliga prov, aldrig förr bort utan mamma, aldrig haft så många prov som jag har nu osv. Om min kropp inte skulle ha reagerat på detta sätt skulle jag nästintill ifrågasatt beteendet. För att få min kropp och själ att må bättre har jag införskaffat några rutiner, varje fredag + en valfri dag går jag på aerobics, sedan går jag en gång i veckan och bastar. Jag var och bastade igår i 15 minuter, åh så skönt det var! Kände hur hela kroppen blev avslappnad, på detta sätt kunde jag koppla bort allt som var runtomkring mig. I morgon har jag tre stycken prov; cellbiologi, fysik och latin. Enligt mig är fysik ett ämne som är viktigare än de andra två ämnena, därför har jag valt att prioritera det när jag pluggat. Dock hoppas jag att jag självfallet kommer att bli godkänd på alla tre proven. Jag kommer att göra mitt bästa!Nu måste jag fortsätta att plugga fysik,

God natt världen,

TT

I guess that all the med-students recognise themselves in this.....


Räknar med att de flesta läkarstudenter börjar bekanta sig med livet som en läkare ...

Studying physics! Pluggar fysik!

Hi there! 

Today I've been the whole day with my friend Alice, we've been struggling with physics (the exam is on tuesday!!!!). Sometimes the physics gets worst then the Chinese alphabet... (since we don't understand the Chinese alphabet...). But if you keep reading the topic, and you work really hard on understanding it, you will notice how "easy" physics actually is, or not directly easy, but it is logic. You just need to give it time. Time and a lot of patience. As you see beside Alice we have a bag of "lösgodis" from "karamellkungen" that is a swedish brand WIHOOOO finally we have found a place that sells it! You can find it in the cinema at West end Galleria. It is though not that cheap, you can find for cheaper at IKEA, and TESCO on the Buda side has it too!!!

I have made a choice now, to actually write in both swedish and english since i know I have many readers from sweden too.

Hej på er allihopa! Detta är mitt första inlägg på svenska, tänkte att jag skulle även skriva på svenska då många utav er faktiskt är ifrån Sverige! Idag har jag pluggat fysik med min svenska väninna Alice. Vi kämpade oss igenom fysikuppgifterna då vi har prov på tisdag, Usch och fy...känns att man inte har tid md allt pluggande! Fysik känns ibland så som rena rama kinesiska alfabetet! (Har inget emot de kinesiska tecknen...dock är det väldigt svårt att förstå de) Men, man måste ha mycket tålamod, genom att ha mycket tålamod kommer man slutligen förstå fysiken, och paletten kommer att falla på sin plats. Som ni ser på Alice högra sida har hon en påse lösgodis från karamellkungen! Tro eller ej, vi har äntligen funnit var man kan köpa det! Väldigt farligt för oss två... Ni kan köpa lösgodis från karamellkungen i bion på West End gallerian. Dock är det inte alls billigt som hemma i Sverige, du kan finna för billigare på IKEA eller på TESCO i Buda.

Ha det bäst!!!

TT

Result anatomy exam, resultat anatomi prov

Omg...that is everything I have to say...I really didn't expect this! During the exam I was thinking "Fuck, I will fail this exam.I can't fail it, 'cmon bella!!!"  I was sure that I had failed the exam. But I kept talking and talking and saying everything he pointed at hoping I would at least past, and get a 2...., I tried to least tried to do my best by explaining things even if I didn't know their names. After five min he told me "If you guess right at two more questions you will get a four"... OMG... a 4?!?!??! My heart stopped for some seconds, I started to laugh a bit and re-asked him "A 4? For real?", he nodded. WOW! I thought I was going to fall, I was that happy! Well, I explained the last two things and then POOM, he wrote a 4 on the paper!!!!In Hungary the grades are between 1(0)-5. So 4 is almost the highest grade! Keep going Bella!!!!!! 

Never underestimate yourself people! That's something I learned today. That I am better then what I think!

NERVOUS!

Time to go to school and have my anatomy exam....omg I am so nervous! The exam will be oral, and I have never had an oral exam so that's why it feels even more nervous for me.

See you soon!!!!


Wish me luck! =D

be crazy

Be crazy, 

be weird, 

don't be afraid of what anybody thinks.

Good night world!

Good night all the amazing humans out there, remember that YOU are YOU, and that YOU are amazing, never forget who you actually are

We are humans, not metal

We're all walking around with these glossy eyes. "I'm just tired," we say. But you know what? It is all freaking bullshit. Yes, we are tired, but it's not all from lack of sleep. We are tired of waking up with  nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing. We're  tired of this void, this emptiness that looms over us even though our days are packed. We're tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we're surrounded by dozen people. So why can't we just say it? Humans are so afraid to look into eachother's eyes and say "I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless and fallible." We've been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, difference with disease, as if it these feelings are contagious, as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared. Well,, I say SCREW ALL OF THAT! Screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and "I'm fine, thank you". Screw the fear of crying in a public place, screw the fake chipper voice, screw the lies we spit out to cover our problems. We are HUMANS. We are meant to FEEL. To feel everything and to feel it openly. We are not metal- we are flesh and bone. Our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands. We are intricate and beautiful and we should never hide our human parts, because if we do, then what is left to show?

Never say "It's ok" when it's not, stand for your feelings. 

You are a human, just like the rest. We ALL have feelings.

Good evening!

Hey there!

Such a long day it has been for me...I started at 8 and ended at 19:00 by having a hungarian exam. My first exam this midterm. You can imagine how everyone in the class were during the exam;
after 11 hours of lectures we had an exam, we were completely exhausted, tired, but we still made it!

I really recommend you to use a back pack in school, if you don't, your spine will look like a S in future, and you will get problems with your shoulders. My backpack is not beautiful at all, but it is really good for my back, and it has two extra things that you put around your tummy, in this way you will not need to have all the weight on your shoulders. I am searching for a nice back-pack, do any of you were I can find one? A good and beautiful one?

Right now I am studying anatomy since I have my anatomy exam on Thursday! I will fix this!!!! =) A recommend THIEME anatomy atlas,it explains all the insertions, origins etc of the muscles too. Try to find it on "used books for sale in Budapest" on Facebook, cause the book normally cost 80 Euro each, and you need 3 of these (one for each "part" of the body).

Bye every one!

Me and my swedish friend Alice after have made the funny hungarian exam...

Remember to try to dress as proper you can during an exam, black skirt, shirt, black shoes. I changed shoes during the exam and then I put on again my comfy shoes. 

You will fix this

"NEVER LET SUCESS GET YOUR HEAD

AND NEVER LET FAILURE GET TO YOUR HEART"

hm!!!!!!!

What I feel about school right now. It's a dirty trash can full of poop. No more comments about this

Pay rent

Hello there!

How are you? I am fine... I have my first mid-term exam tomorrow, Hungarian. Ugh, this language is so difficult! It's like..I don't know, it's just super weird and strange o a high level. But I do my best to learn it! Today I payed the rent, YEI.. NOT. and the manager will come in two days, because I need to pay the rent for next month too. (she made some mistakes, I thought I was supposed to pay the rent after the month, but she wants me to pay on the start of the month), so I am a poor student right now, or, I will be it in two days. Well, the student life is like this...the money you have are exactly enough to pay your rent, books for school and food. But it's good to learn how to handle the money you have, to learn that you can't just buy everything you see, to actually go away from your so called "DIVA-life" (as my mom called it).

 I really need to study hungarian now,

Sziastok!!!!

Isabella

Good night

Me right now... I can't even keep my eyes open...

Good night!

B-DAY!!!

Hi there!

Dear Muammer,

You are stupid. You fail. You're weird. You are not perfect. You smell (now you will call me and kill me and tell me that no girls will go to you now because of me hahahhahahahahhaha). And you eat too much kebabb. But ehy, you know what? That's okey. I'm like that too...except of that I don't smell and that I don't eat kebabb 24/7 * 365.... We laugh at the randomest things. Even though we disagree sometimes (all the time) , we never fight. Thanks for being here for me. As a b-day gift I will give you one apple everyday for the rest of the year, so you don't need to eat only kebabb... hahah, hapy bday!


Yesterday my nearest friend, Muammer, had his b-day party. I've been knowing Muammer for not that long, just 1,5 years. But during these 1,5 years we have build up a friendship that is amazing. When we are with each other people even turn and look at us 'cause we laugh so high and we start to push and fight as siblings. Yes, I can actually call him my brother. We have been going in the same high school, and because of him I am here in Budapest, he studies in Semmelweis too, 2:nd year. I am so thankful of having him, these days I have been calling him in the night, day, early mornings, just to ask for help with something, stuff with school, home works etc, and you know what? He has always answered me, and done his best to help me... even if he has answering me like this "ehy geek/muppet, what do you want?"..  he is always there for me...well, if you would answer me too kind it would be strange, right? hahaha... it wouldn't be you!... . And I always try to do my best to be there for him during the times when he calls me and asks me to help him. It is not only about school stuff, but about everything.  With you I can be weird and lazy, we make fun of each other, and then we just laugh it away. There is a lots a lots of laugh in the time we spend together, but you can be serious too.... specially when it is about your smell (HAHAHAHAHHA,,,yes...now you really will kill me). Dear Muammer, you make me laugh so much, you make me even cry cause I laugh so much, we listen to "girlie gay" music and sing and dance, we call each other just to bully each other and then hang up, we help each other...well...in other words, you are simply the best! Happy birthday old man! Happy 22 years!

Muammer realises how old he is...

Exams...

As you know my exam period starts now... I study, start to cry, then laugh, then cry...

 yeah...I  may sound like a psycho, like a total freak, but actually most of the girls iI know in Semelweiss are like that during the exam period;

 gaining weight, having pms 24/7, yepp, this was included in the price of starting in Semelweiss!!!!!!!! Let's just try to laugh all the time, it is actually working for me, trying to not  be stressed all the time.

 I felt that I was stressing too much today, so I went and took a nap, and now I feel much better. 

Give time and space to yourself, go to a SPA once a week, 

make something you like, 

something that relaxes you, 

you have ALWAYS time to make your body and soul feel better. 

Dessection of upper limb!

Hi there!

Now it's time to have anatomy practice, we have anatomy practice 2 times every week. Right now we have the upper limb(I will have my first mid term next week). The first times I saw the dead human bodies it felt soooo strange, almost disgusting, but now, I don't feel disgusted at all, au contraire, it is so amazing and interesting!

I need to run now,

Bye bye!!!

My scalpel

Dessection of the upper limb This picture is not mine. I've taken it from google. It is against the laws in Hungary to take pictures of the dead bodies we dissect.  But here you see how it looks like when we dissect, really amazing picture!

Teenagers....

It's ok that you got a bad grade. 

It's ok you're not skinny and have bright eyes and don't fit into size four jeans.

 It's ok boys don't whistle at you (I mean, you're not a dog, are you?). 

It's ok that you're friends are leaving, because if they were such good friends, they'd be sitting with you trying to not make you feel like shit.

It's ok your parents shout at you, their trying their best and I don't think they remember how it feels to be a teenager anyway. 

It's ok you feel as though you have lost yourself, everybody does from time to time.

It's ok you're still searching for that missing part of you, we all are. 

It's ok to feel alone, but you must often remind yourself that you are not.

You must remind yourself that you are beautiful, individual, a replica of nobody else. 

YOU'RE YOU AND THAT'S DAMN WELL GOOD FOR ME!!!!

-Mrs'Horan

Spinach soup!

Hi there guys! Today my meal was spinach soup with egg, DELICIOUS! It is so easy to do; egg, fresh spinach/frozen spinach, water, milk, salt...TADAAAAAN finito! I made so much that it's enough for tomorrows lunch and dinner too. When you live alone, and when you are a student, you need to cook "smart", to cook smart means to make such a big amount of food that is enough for more then just one meal. You can make a lot of something, and then for example freeze it. 

See you soon!

CIAO! =)

My dear siblings....

What makes a Brother-Sister  and Sister-Sister relationship special is the way each one remeber the other when they are apart.

 They miss the talks, 

the laughs,

 and the time they spent together. 

Life changes, memories don't.

The cutest baby ever, Axel

The princess Alma

My big love of life, the body-builder Adrian

I MISS YOU MY BROTHERS AND SISTER!

PE!!!!

This is how beautiful we girls in the class look like during PE! Go giiiirls!

Guys imagination about girls on a PE lecture....

The reality of how we girls are on the PE lecture!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Good morning sunshine!

Good morning every one! I woke up 30 min ago, ugh the weather here is so depressive, GREY GREY GREY, I hope that the clouds will disapear while the day goes. I start at 10:30 but I woke up before so I could study for 1,5 hours. (counting 30 min of breakfast/getting dressed etc). I had a really delicious breakfast; sandwich with egg and müsli!  If you don't eat a breakfast that makes you completely full, then your day is screwed up. You will go around thinking that you are hungry, then you will go and waste money on some crapy food. Na, I prefer to eat really good breakfast home then. My day will be kind of long so I will probably not write more today. Yesterday I was on a dinner with all my italian friends, it was sooo fun! It is so amazing how we can laugh together all the time! We went to an indian restaurant,I ate chicken tikka mansala (or wheterver you spell it...), it vas freaking good, BUT, directly when I went home, I start to feel a bit ill, my tummy made strange noises, and now I still feel a bit ill, I don't know why...

Right now I will study anatomy, a good way to test yourself in anatomy is by using the Anatomy flashcards. I use Netter's anatomy flashcards. They are really convenient, portable and effective way to review your anatomy skills. On the front of each flashcard features a full color illustration from Netter's anatomy atlas, with numbered lines pointing to key structures. On the back, concise text identifies those structures and reviews relevant anatomical information and clinical correlations.

But anyway,

have a good day every one!!!

CIAO CIAO

Me right now

 Here I am...

Good night every one!!!!!!

Good morning! 13:20

Good morning!...or good afternoon.. I really needed to sleep this much, I just woke up (13:20), it's completely sick that I can sleep for this long. I've slept for 13 hours...My body really needed to sleep this long, cause now I feel that all my energy is back. You all need to listen to your body, your body always have the right answer. If you feel tired, sleep then some hours extra, cause if you wake up before, and you are tired, you will not focus on your studies in the same way as if you were full with energy.

Right now I am eating lunch, rise with carrots, peas and meatballs!!! GNIAMMI!

Bye every one!!!

gniammi gniam time now and then Anatomy time!!!

See you later!